As unserene as the headline might suggest I’m feeling at the moment, I’m actually quite happy! It’s Friday and I am enjoying the beginning of a three day weekend here at, you guessed it - Spyhouse. Just finished my attempt at the crossword puzzles and reluctantly forced myself to put them down after [...]

I just watched The Machinist. Great film. Great film. The message to me was clear - your secrets will kill you.

continued from … Valentines Day Eve, part four.
I awoke at 7:00 AM to the florescent lighting being turned on and a large lady with a short-cropped haircut yelling, “Time to get up!”
This place was littered with too many lesbians on staff.
The plastic sheet crinkled as I rolled over to face the wall in retreat.
The lesbian [...]

Gopher State was a lot of fun. I had a hard time getting going during the day. I think I was hesitant to get there too early because last year I was on time and the lines for registration were outta control. I didn’t arrive there until around 6:30pm after working [...]

I’ll be at the Gopher State Roundup later today, and perhaps tomorrow. I went last year after only a few months of sobriety. It was really an overwhelming experience. There are thousands of people there - all walks of life, all ages, races, etc, etc. I couldn’t get over how many [...]

Jim told his story tonight at Hazelden. He did a great job. He’s an awesome speaker, getting both laughs and applauses. It’s quite an honor to be asked to speak at the treatment center that’s pretty much invented the current 28 day treatment program prescribed to most sufferring alcoholics and addicts.
I’d never [...]

Continued from Valentine’s Day Eve, part trois.
I settled into my room with a book I had brought - Anne Rice’s The Witching Hour. My room being directly outside of the common area made it easy to hear what was going on with the rest of the gang, who had mostly settled there.
I [...]

I’m fine lately.
Fucked up
Insecure
Neurotic
Emotional
Hah! No seriously, things are okay. Nothing really new going on. Just the usual work, the program, and still working on getting the website back up to par after the incident.
Actually, I take that back. There is something new. I started my ninth step. [...]

… continued from Valentine’s Day Eve, part deux.
I chatted with Roots for a few minutes when the stomping upstairs became methodic. They were coming downstairs. I was nervous. Here was the point I was going to meet the crazies, the people I would hereafter be seen as one of. Thoughts went through my head. What [...]

… continued from Valentine’s Day Eve.
I was greeted by two women at the door. Literally at the door - they were outside smoking cigarettes. One older than the other, but both approaching middle age. The older had grey hair in a buzz cut and was wearing tight jeans, a flannel shirt, and a denim jacket, [...]