… and I am Somebody male. in my thirties. recovering alcoholic. live in minneapolis. work in progress. gay. serenity please.

Am I a bore?

11.20.2005 · Posted in Autobiographical

Not a whore, a B-O-R-E. I think I have turned into one. Call it recovery, growing up, growing old, what-have-you, I’m rarely in the mood these days to go out of my way to socialize. Just last night, on a Saturday of all nights, Jim and I were sitting at Vera’s surfing the ‘net and chatting with other patrons. It was around 7:00 PM. By 9:00 PM we were back at his house watching television and playing with the cats, Frank and Henry.

I had double-booked myself with two other social engagements, but I just wasn’t in the mood to follow-through on those commitments. I’m not sure why I was so apathetic to the commitments – could have been fatigue, a desire not to get dressed to impress, contentness, or all of those things.

On one hand I should be grateful that I don’t feel the need to get out and validate myself through meeting and hanging out with other people. On the other hand, I feel like I’m missing out on meeting and hanging out with other people.

Or, perhaps, I’m over-thinking all of this, and I’m just going into Winter hibernation mode.

11 Responses to “Am I a bore?”

  1. You sound like me. A such, I thnk it’s totally OK.
    See ya later this week.

  2. Sounds like winter in Minnesota. I do not miss the cold and snow up there. 😉

  3. It’s ok to feel that way, I do as well sometimes. I wish that Justin and I had some more friends that were into just getting together and hanging out socially. It seems that most of my friends enjoy going out all the time and I just feel like after you’ve been there, and done that … well THAT’s just boring. I’d rather sit at home with a few good friends near a fire or the pool and have some good conversation and hang out. So bottom line is I know how you’re feeling, I think it’s both age, experience and maturity that you don’t feel like being social. It happens to the best of us.

  4. wow, i could have written that post. you perfectly captured how i’ve been feeling lately. at least I know I’m not a freak. well, on second thought… 😉

  5. I know how you are feeling. I go through phases like that too. PLUS I enjoy Sat night by myself at home with my little dog. 🙂
    Hope you will feel at least a little social over the weekend. I am really looking forward to meeting you and Jim! YAY! 3 more days!!!!!!

  6. Winter Hibernation Mode! Having been raised in Minnesota, I can recall how everything comes to a standstill, mood included, in the winter months. You can always visit Austin, it’s nice and cozy this time of year 🙂

  7. You’re not a bore; I’m the same way. What’s really boring is this comment I’m leaving.

  8. Since I started DJing, my weekends are at the bar, but I really don’t get to socialize much. Most of my time is spent up in the booth. If I wasn’t there, I’d be at home curled up with a book or watching something from Netflix. I have my social moods, of course, but most of the time I’m fine with doing stuff on my own.

  9. I can relate. I’ve been wondering the same things lately–and I’m really hoping it’s winter hibernation syndrome. If the anti-social, boring thing is a result of getting older, I think perhaps I’ll go into cryogenic stasis until medicine develops a cure for it.

  10. Me too. I agree that it may just be a winter thing. I am much more anti-social in the winter.

  11. Hmmmm…maybe you’re just going through a slight funk…I have been through it many times. Just don’t over-think it. I am sure you’ll be back to yourself in no time, and you will be going out and mingling with new people before you know it! Hope you have a great Thanksgiving!